[22 Apr 2006|12:58am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | - - "sugar" - trick daddy ft. ludacris - - ] it's been a bit since i last wrote on here. since then i've had the most amazing person come into my life. justin dwayne gillman. we have spent every single day with each other since we got together and i wouldn't change a second of it. this is one thing that i will never let out of my life. he is the only thing that puts that smile on my face when i first wake up. he makes me the happiest person, like, i couldn't be happier even if someone tried to pay me. i wouldn't trade the time we've had together for anything else in this world. in such a short amount of time we have made some memories that will stay with us both until the day we die. i love him with my entire mind, body, and soul. goin' crazy

[13 Feb 2006|12:06pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | - billy currington/must be doing something right - ] wow, it's been a really long time since i've wrote in this thing. unfortunately nothing has happened for me to write about? still single and tomorrow is valentines day. sucks! i have nobody to spend it with or anything. isn't that just depressing. hopefully, it'll snow like something crazy and they'll call school off again tomorrow. that would be nice =) goin' crazy

[14 Dec 2005|10:29pm] -* PRIVATE ENTRY, SORRY YAWL =( *- goin' crazy

[07 Dec 2005|10:31pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | * watching "dare devil" ... ] cracker got me something for christmas and says that he KNOWS i'll like it but won't tell me what it is?! arg. =) i aint got the slightest clue at all what i'm gonna get him!? mom and i are suppose to go to charleston and huntington sometime this week or next and i'll pick him up a few things then. he's having my stuff mailed to me for christmas but i'm just gonna wrap his stuff and give 'em to him whenever he comes home. now what exactly do you buy a guy that's in the army over in iraq?! i got me a tough one on my hands but he's worth it =) he emailed me today and was sitten there talking about the guys that were sitting there with him. he said that they were talking about the girls back at home and how each of them had like 3 then he said that he aint even joined in on the conversation because the only one he's coming home to his me. aint that soo cute!? it just absolutely tickled me too death =)) i finally went today and got my nails filled in and repaired. i've had them for a little over a month and i was missing five, none of them had the white tip anymore. they just looked very homely, lmao. i aint had them done since like a week before i went and had my senior pictures done. speaking of, i have about another week and the proofs should be ready. if not i'm gonna throw a major bitch fit. it's been about 3 and a half weeks. arg! i've already decided, i'm dodging school friday. i have zero amount of intensions in going. mom just got pissed off because i didn't put the gifts under the tree. i told her to help me and she just walked through the house long enough for me to put them under there ((which i didn't)) and came through the house and started bitching. i told her i wasn't gonna do it myself that she had to help. yea, she wrapped them all but only because she wouldn't let me help. so that's her fault. i offered. i can't hold a gun to her head and tell her that she has to let me help her. crap no, lmao. this is long enough. until next time ...... goin' crazy

[06 Dec 2005|04:02pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | * watching the drew carey show * ] WHOOT, i finally got me a new keyboard. now all the keys aren't sticking together or anything. tickles me too death =)) wow, people actually do read this! HI KATIE!! lmao. yea, i'm a dork, get over it. haha me, gen, and shae went to huntington yesterday to see jordan. i threw up 2 times on the way there, 3 times in the hospital, 1 time in the mall, and 1 time on the way home. by that time i had nothing else in my system =( i took shae home but i didn't feel like taking gen all the way up bum fucked egypt. i just had mom take her home. whenever she got home i was knocked out, i couldn't my eyes open any longer. i went into school late this morning because i felt horrible even when i woke up but the guy with all of our senior stuff came today and i wanted to get mine. how sad =( i woke up this morning and i had an email from cracker from EARLY yesterday =( but i emailed him back like ASAP. lmao. i heard a couple of girls are after him. hmm, guess it's a good thing that HE told ME that i have ONE-HUNDRED PERCENT OF HIM =)) sorry ladies, ha. well, i have nothing more to say. untill next time ... (1) goin' crazy

[05 Dec 2005|12:15am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | -----nothing =)) ] heyy heyy =) what's going on?! shoo, i miss cracker. i feel like i aint talked to him in centeries! depressing me. me, ash, and mary stayed in huntington last night. we went to visit jordan and we stayed at crystal's apartment. i had fun! i love them girls! i've missed ole ash cat. we used to be like bff until last year and that's just when we didn't talk very much. but now we're starting to get close again. make me happy =) jordan is doing alot better. i'm so glad. i'm probably gonna go back up there tomorrow. yea, i more than likely will. i hate that he's having to go through this. i'm just glad he's not going through it alone. we got there saturday and seen him for a couple of hours then we left and went to the mall. by the time we got back there was dale, adam, bubby, candice, andria, jass, piddy, tammy, kathy, brad, me, ash, and mary. that's alot of people just sitting around in one room, lol. we sat around there until around 1 or 2 a.m then we headed down to crystal's and stayed there while she's in south carolina. i miss cracker. i already care sooooo much about him and it's the life out of me. i'm trying not to let it scare me soo much that i start to push him away. i couldn't stand to lose him. i don't know what i would do if i actually did?! probably lose my mind. yah know, i don't even care that i don't get to see him or talk to him on the phone everyday. that doesn't matter to me. i mean, we talk everyday but through email. i understand that he's in the army and that he can't just sit around on the phone all day everyday. that's why it doesn't bother me. usually i have to build my trust with someone. that takes months. but something that's so crazy/great about jordan, i never had to build it. it was already there?! if anybody read this they would think i'm some kind of nutjob. i don't know of anyone that actually does read it or even knows about it for that matter. guess that's a good thing, haha. reakon this is long enough. until next time =))</font> (1) goin' crazy

* gahh .. [27 Nov 2005|10:15pm] [ mood | irritated ] [ music | * pat benater - hit me with your best shot * ] hey there kids ;o) today has pretty much sucked. i aint done jack since i woke up. i was really planning on getting ready then heading up williamson and getting my nails filled in and then head off to logan to visit my cousin and her new, very welcomed baby girl ;o)) i feel like a terrible person because i aint been to see them, yet. i emailed jordan telling him everything that went down between me and the mother and he said that after he gets out of the army he's going to probably build him a house and said that i'm gonna have to go stay with him like all the time. made me smile very big. unfortunately i know my mother would never hear of it. i could say that i would anyways because by that time i'll be 18 but she'll be the one paying for my college so i can't do that. hopefully though, if i go to college and we're still together and everything she'll let me. it would be kinda stupid if she didn't. i care so much for jordan that it honestly scares me too death. i'm afraid that i'm going to fall "in love" with him and him do the same stuff to me that michael done and i just can't deal with that. i don't want to push him away like i always end up doing when i start to feel myself getting close to someone. i always find the dumbest things to pick at about them and i start to pick little fights. i end up making the fights out to be more than what they really should be and i just end it with them. it can't help it. i'm 17 years old and been in love one time in my life. people tell me that i'm too young to know what love really is. maybe in reality i really am. but i know what i felt for michael was love. if it wasn't and it hurt as bad as it did then i never want to be in love. i assume this will long enough for my boring day. until next time <33 goin' crazy

man, it's been a while ... [26 Nov 2005|01:56pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | * rascal flats - broken road * ] heyy kiddos. sorry, it's been so long. i tell yah, that myspace stuff is quite addicting. no lie. i'm really gonna have to go today and purchase me a new keyboard. i've spilled pop or something in it and now all the key are stuck together and some of 'em, after being pushed only once, continue typing the same letter about 12 times. stressful. so much drama went down here last night between me and the mother. not getting into that at the moment. just don't want to. i wish jordan would email me back. it's stressing me out. i miss him terribly and i'm absolutely crazy about him. who knew? after like 2 years of not speaking or see eachother, one day he gets online so i decide to message him and see how the army is going and then we started emailing eachother and been talking ever since. that was about a month ago, i'd say? but like the 23rd we decided to start "talking". he said he was worried about me because he was afraid i would get too attached and then something happen to him while he was over there. little does he know how i attached to him i already am. if any was to happen to him, and God please don't let anything happen, it would absolutely tear me apart. it's amazing how close emailing someone for a month can bring you. and i thought the movie "you've got mail" was a bunch of rubbish. pssht. well, i quit my job. now i'm bumming money off the mother again. i hate that because she makes sure i don't forget it. and she makes sure she writes down exactly how much she gave me. eww, it pisses me off. my obsession, harry potter, is calling my name so i'm gonna jump off here and go read for a bit. until next time ;o) goin' crazy

[30 Jul 2005|10:28pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | - forty foot echo - brand new day - ] looks like i was wrong. i do have readers. lol. i dont exactly understand why people would wanna read about my boring life but yah know. lol. i got cut early. that made me veeerrryy happy ;o))) . i swear i aint gonna have any money to my name. i'm gonna be broke as a joke. that's sad. lol. i need to start saving because with my money plus mom's i'll be able to go school clothes crazy. whoo lol. i'm excited. adam came by work today on his break. todd and dan came by also. but that's about all that i seen that i knew today. lol. i never see anyone i know. it's all like chapmanville and man people. needless to say, i dont know any of them. i really seriously dont have anything to say. i aint done anything to write about so i'm just going on about absolutely nothing. ohh, i think those stupid ass little girls went to vacation or something cause they aint commented on my picturetrail in a while. i aint complaining, though. that shit is gettin old. it's so stupid. they're always saying stupid stuff like, when i ask for their names all they will say is that i dont need to know and i will find out whenever school starts. now how childish is that?! waiting til school starts? shit, if they hate me so much then do something now, not whenever school starts. that's just pathetic. they're just too big of pussies that aint gonna do shit. that's all it comes down to. they aint gonna say anything to my face cause if they were then they would've already done it because they've apparently hated me for a while now. lmao. anyways, i guess i'm gonna jump off here and go watch tv. i aint got nutten better to do. until next time ;o)) goin' crazy

[30 Jul 2005|01:19am] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | - julie roberts - break down here - ] hey, yawl. what's up? lmao, yea, nobody reads this. but i aint complaining, i like it better that way. adam and rob just stopped by and left a few minutes ago. they crack me up. i love 'em though. they were wantin me to go to charleston with them. lord only know why?! they just wanted to go somewhere so i said lets go to egypt but they just wasnt up for that. lol. nothing has really been going on. ever since me and andria got back from tennessee i've been working everyday. i dont know what to do. i'm so confused about everything with noone in this world to talk to. noone would understand or even wanna listen. i'm keeping everything bottled up inside and i'm afraid what's gonna happen if i keep holding it all in. i cant tell anyone. i feel like i cant trust anyone. like everyone is out to get me for some reason? i dont know? maybe they are. i'm gonna leave it on that and go to bed. goodnight all. (3) goin' crazy

[23 Jul 2005|01:28am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | - wait - ying yang twins - ] what's up homie?! dude, me and andria just got back today. we went to tennessee. i swear, it was sooo much fun. KASSIE SHOULD HAVE WENT!!!! but noooo she "couldn't" .. lmao. nahh, i'm just messin with her. i'm sitten here with her. i missed her so i had to get her to come stay with me tonight. lol. i gotta work tomorrow so i gotta take her home before i go. it's gonna suck so bad going back to work. i wish that i could just quit because i'm gettin so sick of that place and everybody in it. eww gahhh. ahh, i don't feel like typing everything that happened right now so i'll just wait until tomorrow. go to my page and look at my pictures from the trip .. www.picturetrail.com/karibeth22 goin' crazy

[19 Jul 2005|07:04pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | - watchin "friends" - ] hey there beautiful ;o) me, mom, and andria got back around 4 or 5 something. i am soo wore out. i had fun tho. it was so damn hott that it was miserable in the park (incase i forgot to say, we went to carawinds in north/south carolina). i think i had most fun on the way there and back just spending time with my mom and bestfriend. on our way back we ate at that uno place in chaleston? word of advise, dont eat there. it sucked terribly. me and andria is thinkin about taking off and heading to pigeon forge. it was would be so fun if we do because she aint never been and i aint been in a long time. mom is gonna give us directions and said she would go ahead and call up there and make us reservations. i'm suspended from work until saturday. all because taneisha said she was checking the bathrooms but apparently she just went in there and signed the door. well, mary came in about 2 and checked the bathrooms and i got there at 1 and asked me what time i got there then asked taneisha and she had been there since 12. well, around 3 she called us to back into the office, fired taneisha and suspended me. debbie had to call me and tell me when i could go back because mary wouldnt tell me. she just kept saying your suspended, go home. i was soooooo close to cussing everyone there out and trowing all my shit at them and saying "i fucking quit. peace." but i didnt. ahh, i aint worried about it, i need a vacation. seriously. lol. brb, gotta check my cake. back, it still aint done. yea, i got bored and wanted something sweet so i decided i was gonna back a cake. lol. welp, i gonna go watch "friends" and wait on my cake to get done. tootles ;o) goin' crazy

[14 Jul 2005|10:39pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | - how to deal - frankie j - ] awwwl, he aint mad at me nomore!! ;o) that just tickles me too death! i'm so happy. there are so many things going thru my head right now that i dont know whats up and whats down. i'm so confused about everything and i have noone at all to talk to about this. noone will understand. noone. i guess i'm just gonna have to try and deal with this on my own. it's gonna be hard but i'm strong. i can do this. i've always got god on my side so that helps more than anything. i'm so excited about sunday. i'm gonna go to church with clint and them. it's gonna be great. i miss going to church. i need to change my life. i really do. clint is seriously my brother from another mother. lol. he knows every little thing about me. i can tell him everything. i can talk to him the same way i can talk to my real brother. but i'm gonna jump offa here and head up to clint's .. lmao. tootles ;o) goin' crazy

[13 Jul 2005|03:06am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | - story of the year - until the day i die - ] i've come to love -story of the year-. they're great. i was on ashleejo's xanga and heard "until the day i die" and fell in love with it. it's awesome. if you've never heard it then you really need to consider downloading it. i really hate that he is mad at me. it's seriously killing me and i dont know why it's bothering me so bad but it is. i just wish he wasn't mad ;o( i'm going to bed. goodnight ;o( goin' crazy

[12 Jul 2005|11:53pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | - juvenile - back that ass up - (yes, oldschool.. haha) ] me, andria, and april went to charleston today. i had fun. i love those girls. i cant wait til we all go to the beach. i hope kassie goes with us. it'll be sooo much fun. i think parker is mad at me for reason? i aint done nutten to him tho. lmao, these little girls are startin back on my picturepage again. they quit for a couple of days. it's like this, they are just too big of pussies to say anything to my face so saying shit on my PICTUREPAGE GUESTBOOK makes them feel big about themselves, i guess? lmao i guess i'm gonna jump off here and watch some tv then get ready for bed. goodnight ;o) goin' crazy

[11 Jul 2005|03:16am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | - obsessions - baby bash - ] after tonight i've realized that i so dont need him in my life. i'm not gonna let this bullshit start again. i'm sooo happy with the way things are right now. my life is actually good. he aint gonna ruin it for me. i'm goin to bed. goodnight ;o) goin' crazy

[10 Jul 2005|07:08pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | - lil jon - ohh na na - ] heyy man, whats up? i'm just sitten here listenin to music, chillin. i'm still sooo sleepy. i just got outta the shower and now i'm ready to go back to bed. lmao. this song tickles me. if yah aint ever heard it, download it. it's cool. last night just was not exciting at all. it sucked nuts. welp, i'm gonna listen to music. i just figured i'd write since i aint wrote in a while. bye ;o) goin' crazy

[09 Jul 2005|07:03pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | - going crazy - natalie - ] JUST WHEN THINGS ARE GOING GOOD HE FUCKIN CALLS! FUCK HIM! goin' crazy

[07 Jul 2005|02:37pm] [ mood | irritated ] [ music | - d.h.t - listen to your heart - ] gahh, i so dont wanna go to work. i got lucky and got to leave early yesterday but i seriously dont see that happening today. maaan. nancy williams is suppose to start over there today. i think she's gonna be serving but i aint too sure. it's gettin to where the only thing i like about that place anymore is thursdays and that's only because we get to wear what we want on thursdays. that place is gettin old real fast. i've been there for, well, the 11th will make 6months. man, that's a long time for me. lol i didnt even leave clint's til about 6this morning because it was daylight. me and parker started to leave at around 4:30 or 5 because we always end up leaving at the same time. anyways, we just stood outside at our cars and just talked. it was pretty cool. we were actually alone for a little while and talked. all-in-all, i had fun. lol ahh, i guess i'm gonna go finish gettin ready then head to work. joy. - peace yawl ;o) goin' crazy

[06 Jul 2005|08:53pm] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | - sitten here w/clint & kass .. ] heyy, whats up? nutten to much here just sitten here with kass and clint chillin. me and kass might as well live here. lmao. kass more than me. lol. dude, it's just so much fun tho and all we do is just sit here and chill. anyways, i aint really done anything today. i took kass back to clint's about 3 whenever i went to work. i got to work and told them i was sit so they just told me i could go home. i went home and chilled for a while and then came up here. this entry is gonna be short cause i aint got nutten to say. i'll write back whenever i have something to say. peace ;o) THANKS KAT FOR MY NEW LAYOUT!!!!!!!!!!! ;o)))))))))))))) (1) goin' crazy

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